Where's the HEROIN in ME??

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.....

Long time never write here. Taking my own sweet time to digest new things that I get.
Until one day, my sahabat asked me to express anything that i feel here.
She said, do not wait until you understand it as a whole.
Just express it here, maybe others can help you to digest it better=)

Now, I feel so uncertain. I don't know why, but i know there's something wrong over 'here'.
Sometimes, i feel like starting a new life but sometimes, 'it' hold me back.
I still remember what my sisters and sahabats keep telling me over n over again.
In life, there are only 3 days:

# YESTERDAY : u can do nothing to change it
# TODAY : most important ( use it to the max )
# TOMORROW : let it to Allah coz we don't know we'll be there or not but doesn't mean that u can't plan 4 it.

To be honest, now i feel like i am somebody else. Not the brave and strong LIZA anymore.
So many things happened these last two years which lower down my self-confidence.
I got dreams. Sometimes, they seem so far away from me.
I feel like running away from people and most of the time from problems.
I know all these TESTS should make me stronger coz Allah Himself is testing me.
I remember what K. Shira told me:

" In life, there are so many turning points. This is one of your turning points."
" Liza wake up, step up and move on "

I miss the old LIZA who used to be confidence in herself.
I miss the old LIZA who used to be the best among the best.
I miss the old LIZA who knew what she's doing.
I miss the old LIZA who had passion towards her study.

But,
I know the old liza did not know the purpose of her creation.
I know the old liza was so innocent about TRUE LOVE.
I know the old liza talk more than work.

Ya Allah, give me faith in You.
Ya Allah, make me stay in ISLAM.
Ya Allah, teach me to become a true MUSLIM.
Ya Allah, give me sahabats who will b with me in this path.

Good to listen=)

Theres a hero

If you look inside your heart

You dont have to be afraid

Of what you are

Theres an answer

If you reach into your soul

And the sorrow that you know

Will melt away

And then a hero comes along

With the strength to carry on

And you cast your fears aside

And you know you can survive

So when you feel like hope is gone

Look inside you and be strong

And you'll finally see the truth

That a hero lies in you

Its a long road

When you face the world alone

No one reaches out a hand

For you to hold

You can find LOVE

If you search within yourself

And the emptiness you felt

Will disappear

And then a hero comes along

With the strength to carry on

And you cast your fears aside

And you know you can survive

So when you feel like hope is gone

Look inside you and be strong

and you'll finally see the truth

That a hero lies in you

Lord knows

Dreams are hard to follow

But dont let anyone tear them away

Hold on

There will be tomorrow

In time

You'll find the way

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
and you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

That a hero lies in you

That a hero lies in

You=)

Waallahu'alam~